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April 03, 2023

Fiction: Backward and Forward

art - Sunlight on Brownstones by Edward Hopper
Sunlight on Brownstones by Edward Hopper
Every moment she lives is a déjà vu moment. It isn't just a feeling, it is a reality. Throughout her life, she has lived in repeated tragedies. Many a time, she has calculated and measured the probabilities of the same event happening more than once but she has not found the answer on how to avoid the same tragic end, not until she realized she have to be the one to make the hard choices.
    Often times, she is a logical being but her emotions somehow cause her logic to change. But one thought always follows her: Will what she do or not do change anything? She has doubted every decision on every matter. She has spent years on some decisions, others took seconds. Whether to move backward or forward is her choice. She can live in the past and never change anything but things change, time moves forward and there is no stopping either one. So she moves on through her choices.
    As she sits under the early morning light with her husband of two days, she ponders nothing at all. What is there to gain by thinking? And yet, nagging thoughts linger in the back of her mind: Will this end soon? Will someone come and destroy her happiness? As much as she wants this, she knows, it is wrong. She has manipulated situations and someone died in order to get this outcome. But as he speaks of eating a hearty breakfast before going for a walk, she pushes aside those nagging thoughts and follows him inside. This is her time to live a happy life, if only for a short while.

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8 comments:

  1. Haven't I read this before? I can't decide.

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    1. Debra: Have you? I just wrote this yesterday. I'm pretty sure I did not post this piece before... Maybe you have seen a similar painting - I used Hopper's paintings a lot for last year's A-Z fiction pieces. Perhaps I have subconsciously copy another writer's work without knowing? Who knows.

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    1. Christine: I'm glad to hear that. Thank you for coming by. Have a lovely day.

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  3. It sounds so mysterious. Can she travel back and forth in time?

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    1. Roberta: It's not time travel, more like someone who lived the same tragedies, that all she can do is experience them until she makes a decision that arrives at this point. I haven't thought too much on this. It's just a story.

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  4. Wow she's conflicted. But mysterious too- what did she DO to get to where she is? and her husband sounds blissfully unaware.

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    1. Greg: What did she do? I don't know. What did you think she did?

      I can give you an idea - an accident in which two people needed an organ transplant and only one organ is available. And being a doctor who got to make that decision, she saved her husband with some minor criminal act to make it happen. Or so I thought while writing this. But honestly, I dismissed the idea because I didn't quite like it. But she could have done anything. I thought I leave it to the reader to think of an answer.

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