Retro(spect) Minute #1: Stuck in a blog

This year, I will have blogged for 18 years which sounds like a lot but probably isn't as I sort of count the first 10 years as just learning and making mistakes. According to this previous post, I seemed to have had about 35 active blogs including this one you're currently reading but it's actually 33 blogs since I've blogged at The memory of rain (the blog before this) three times. My very first blog was in 2006 at Yahoo 360 so there is no text or rather, I can't find any in my archives files but it was so brief that it hardly counts as blogging.
    To sort of celebrate this milestone, I will share 18 of my favorite posts from previous blogs but no posts from this blog you're currently reading as I don't want to repeat anything. And I won't post any fiction but I might post some of my poems. I was bit foolish and deleted almost all my blogs (ie, the posts) as I wanted to start on a clear slate so I can't link any of them. And I seem to be missing a lot of post text for some odd reason. I can't find them in my archive files. A while back I had a computer crash (don't even remember the year) and lost a lot of files so that may be why I don't have those text.
    I titled these posts Retro(spect) Minute/Retro Minute as a sort of a retrospect of sorts. For this first of eighteen posts, I'll start with a post from March 9, 2014 from Sleepwalking in NY blog.

Stuck in a blog
I don't know about other bloggers but I find updating my blog to be either a joyful task or a painstaking chore that sometimes makes me wonder if I should even have a blog.
    Every week, I would agonize what to post and whether or not if people will like it. I often write a lot of personal opinion pieces and lots of short stories that either never gets finish or are just too long for posting. I do self edit a lot when I write but even then, everything just gets far too long and jam-packed with too many thoughts or ideas. Sometimes I can cut it down and sort it out to make sense and sometimes I just give up on the piece.
    I really don't like the idea of revealing myself too much even though not many people on the web knows me in person. In the back of my mind, there is always the thought of being judge and whether what I post sounds like complaints that I should keep to myself. I try to always remember to post whatever I like and try not to care about what people might think but more often, I forget this. But at least once in a while, I really do post what I want.
    Sometimes in a mad state, most likely a happy, mad state, I would post things I know would offend people but I do it anyway because I really like the piece. And then of course, I would regret it the moment it becomes too late to remove the post. And sometimes there is no regret at all. Just this satisfaction that I have posted something good and people like it. And if they don't, then they don't.

How about you? Do you think about your readers whenever you are about to hit the 'publish' button or do you just go with whatever you feel like it?